hermionesviolin: (restless [moobytooby])
Well, I slept in this morning, which hopefully won't mess me up too much with trying to sleep tonight and get up and function tomorrow.

I'm feeling in a funk, not wanting to do anything.  I've been catching up on tv writeups, which at least makes me feel mildly accomplished (when I'm not feeling horribly inferior for not having gotten them done sooner).  CSI and WaT -- backdated to spare your flists.

(I also saw Law & Order: Criminal Intent for the first time today.  I caught the end of "Diamond Dogs" [5.02] and then watched "Prisoner" [5.03] -- which was fascinating.  [tv.com says "better angels of our nature" is from Abraham Lincoln's first inaugural address, which was later quoted by Martin Luther King Jr.  Who knew?  My immediate thought was of Toby talking about "the voices of his better angels" in "The Crackpots and These Women" ([tWW 1.05).]  Damn that show is depressing, though.)

Heh, "country matters."

Other things I have learned today: The Broccoli Test [further discussion here]
hermionesviolin: (moon house)
[livejournal.com profile] musesfool is discussing ficcing post-Serenity movie.

[livejournal.com profile] club_joss is discussing Air by [livejournal.com profile] ana_grrl (first seen on LJ here), a post-movie Kaylee/Inara fic which I love.
hermionesviolin: image of Caleb from Buffy with text "none are righteous" (none are righteous)
TVGuide (April 17-22) has House ("The man you love to hate") on the cover -- "People think they want House to change, but they don't. They watch him because he's a jerk." [The same quote -- from creator and exec producer David Shore -- in the inside article, says "bastard" rather than "jerk."] My immediate reaction, of course, was: "A lot of fandom? Is very upfront about the fact that the appeal is his abrasive etc. -ness."

Hugh Laurie says, "The fact that House doesn't need to be liked makes him paradoxically likable. Unlike so much of the world, House is not trying to get your vote or your applause. And I admire that" (p. 24). I was reminded of [livejournal.com profile] dorrie6's post. And certainly fandom bears out Laurie's explanation. I, of course, am one of the unwon. I talk a bit about this in my writeup of "Safe" but am making a separate meta-post because a lot of my flisters love House/House and I'm honestly confused by their attraction.

Disclaimer of course that I've seen all of 3 episodes of this show. Feel free to back up your comments with examples from any of the episodes.

Read more... )
hermionesviolin: photo shoot of James Marsters as Spike with a grey textured background, with white text "Darkness has turned to grey" (grey)
Okay, karmically I am owed nada because I have been lax in [livejournal.com profile] club_joss discussion and have so many writing commitments I am behind on. But reading [livejournal.com profile] glossing's Family Romance got me thinking about stuff I'd been meaning to post about for weeks, nay months, now. (Moral universes and worldviews.)

The same day that I saw my first episode(s) of Star Trek: Deep Space Nine ("Homefront"/"Paradise Lost" 4.10/4.11), [livejournal.com profile] mari4212 posted about moral universes and worldviews in fictional universes. She much prefers optimistic worldviews, which was interesting for me to read, not because it felt out of character for her (because it isn't) but because I was struck by how opposite my approach is. I'm fascinated by the grey areas. (And much though I love Star Trek: The Next Generation, the utopianness of it often frustrates me -- thanks to my dad's influence -- because it just doesn't feel realistic.)

A few weeks later, [livejournal.com profile] alixtii posted about trying to get into VMars, and he mentioned that Veronica wasn't Mary Sue-ish enough for him, which I found amusing because my impression is that the opposite is a more common complaint in fandoms at large (not about VMars specifically, just fandoms in general). What particularly struck me, however, was "VM seems to be nitty-gritty realistic. And I find that a real turn-off. I want to watch shows that are larger than life." On the one hand, I get frustrated with fictional people a lot because they don't communicate or whatever and part of my brain is yelling at me that I want them to be better, smarter, whatever, than "real" people. (See also the fact that I get frustrated with "real" people all the time.) This brings me to the most recent item.

Poking through my huge backlog of Fic To Read recently, I pulled up [livejournal.com profile] pearl_o's plea for genderfuck fic. From the comments there, I read [livejournal.com profile] glossing's fic Family Romance. I'm not sure I would actually rec the fic, but it was the example I'd seen most recently of a gritty difficult world in which the author kept refusing to take the easy way -- which while painful and/or frustrating for the reader, is something I really admire in a writer (especially because I know I'm often very tempted to take the easy way out in my own writing).

I don't have specific questions for the flist [nor even a pithy teaser should this be metafandom-ed], am just tossing the issue out to anyone who wants to talk.
hermionesviolin: black and white photo of Emma Watson as Hermione, with text "hermionesviolin" (hermione by oatmilk)
~8hrs sleep.  Of course I woke up tired, but that's okay.

UnitHead: "Good afternoon."
Me: "Hello."
Him: "What?"
Me: "I said hello."
Him: "Oh, I thought you said 'kind of.'"
Me: "No, it's a perfectly fine afternoon."

The day was blessedly calm (slow).  I did the stuff for Prof.D. that I'd I'd back-burnered and didn't have any real issues with stuff for Prof.B. There were also learning experiences (low-stress ones).

I've been having good conversations with Lorraine (and others) about what (single thing) would you change in your canons of choice and feedbacking.

I've watched other conversations and been relatively calm in my non-engagement.

I read fanfic and sent some feedback and drafted feedback for others.

Tonight is CSI and Without a Trace reruns I haven't seen.  *cringes at the thought of how many episode writeups she has backlogged* [Edit: tvguide.com/listings totally lied. CSI is new -- as one would have suspected given it got on the TVGuide print version Hot List. Edit2: The episode that aired totally wasn't the Hot List episode, though. Also: My mom says her Yahoo! tv listings described the episode that actually aired. Edit3: Without a Trace was in fact the episode I suspected it might have been, and thus I have seen it -- and can go to bed earlier.]

This is the day that the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.
hermionesviolin: image of Giles with text "I am nothing but books and heart" (books and heart)
(Sidenote: [livejournal.com profile] thistlerose is talking about poly marriages.)

[livejournal.com profile] alixtii is talking about fictional desire.  Much of it makes my brain hurt trying to process (I was a bad English major and didn't even touch philosophy.) but one thing that struck me both in the post itself and in comments thusfar was the idea that if these characters we say we desire showed up on our doorstep we wouldn't have sex with desire them.  I'm personally choosing not to have sex with anyone right now, but in terms of desire?  Oh yeah.

This reminds me of a conversation I had with Allie some years back about Ethan and other "villainous" characters and how I kept getting stuck on "But if I encountered him in real life..." that while I could appreciate his character [definition: person, not ethics] I couldn't actually say I liked him because I kept getting stuck on that.  Thinking about this now, I would say my opinions on just about anything fictional are predicated on "if it were real."

It's possible that I should have just replied on Alixtii's journal, but I was curious to hear what my particular flist thinks.

(NB: This is a different discussion from the living-vicariously-through-porn discussion.  Obviously there's overlap, but I'm not interested -- in this discussion -- about whether/how much you imagine yourself in the sex/relationships you write but rather if your desire for fictional characters would remain if they suddenly became "real."  Because I always assumed that except for stuff that fell under the "fantasizing about the bad boy" type of category, everyone's desire for fictional characters seamlessly transitioned into "if they were real" and yet apparently I am very mistaken in this.)
hermionesviolin: image of the Devil Robot from Futurama, with text "El Diablo Robótico" (which is a phrase from an Angel episode) (diablo robotico [saava])
Thursday night’s CSI and Without a Trace were reruns I’d seen ("Secrets and Flies" 6.06 and "Honor Bound" 4.05, respectively), so I watched Fantastic Four with my mom. When I was at the library last Saturday, Terry asked me if I’d seen it; he’d checked it out but watched it on his lunch so I was free to have it until the next Saturday.

Amusingly, I pulled up amazon.com Monday night it recommended me Fantastic Four because I had purchased Firefly and Serenity. (A while back it recommended Mirrormask to me for the same reason; and recently it also recommended Beast Machines Transformers: The Complete Series to me because I’d bought Gargoyles - The Complete First Season [for a friend, though I have no shame about my enjoyment of that show].)

I always think of Gillian’s ponderments as to why the suddenly superpowered always use their powers for the greater good when I think of this movie. Read more... )
hermionesviolin: image of an old book with "Vampyr" on the over, text "It's my life" (obsessedmuch?)
[livejournal.com profile] kaiz uses the analogy of a newsfeed to talk about how we use our flists.

and now the fannish stuff )

Additional tidbit from [livejournal.com profile] viciouswishes :)
The vibrator was invented in 1869 by a doctor seeking to cure 'female disorders,' including hysteria. Hysteria was believed to be caused by the uterus freely roaming around the body causing inexplicable emotional outbursts. Doctors would bring their patients to orgasm and note the calm and relaxed nature the women exhibited afterward.
hermionesviolin: (pensive)
Last meeting of Skarda's class was a house party per usual.  I kept feeling like there should be alcohol because last time i was there was the Christmas party at the end of Romantics class.  And then lo there was orange grapefruit compote with triple sec.  Which of course i didn't eat, 'cause hello grapefruit, but still.

On Monday i told Kate the Bluebeard story because she had never heard it (and it's my seminar reading for this week) and realized just how much i have totally adopted her gestures and inflections for storytelling.  Then i actually read the Perrault story, and found it so caricatured.  NMB actually finds the Grimms' "Fitcher's Bird" a more poorly put together story.

The last time i read Angela Carter's "The Bloody Chamber" i was really into the heroine's sexual development, her awakening to the pleasures of S&M, and i was much less convinced this time around, which might mean that i was in a particular headspace last time and this time around am more aware of the fact that Carter didn't intend that (after all, the piano-tuner seems pretty vanilla) but given how much Carter uses the theme of awakening the dark primal bestial sexuality beneath the surface, and uses it as a positive thing, it seems to me a potentially valid reading of the text.  I want fanfic in which Bluebeard isn't a murderer and in which they negotiate a really hot kinky sexlife.  Alternatively, kinky post-canon fic.

Candi's doing her final paper on folklore motifs in Tori Amos songs, focusing on sex and violence.

It was sinking in on my way home from class that the class-taking phase of my undergraduate career is now over forever.

Poll inspired by a real-life story from a friend:
So, you're on a date with a guy.  Somehow it comes up in conversation that he would like to make a porn film, "But not the cheesy hardcore kind. Something classier - geared to women and couples."
[Poll #484240][And for those of whom your immediate reaction is, "I'm on a date with a guy? wtf?" just play along.]

And from a completely different context, [livejournal.com profile] phineasjones says, "i can't believe anyone out there is like, 'i have breasts, so i already have all the breast experience i need.' i mean, come on! there is so much variety to be explored!"

Fortune cookie: "Don't be hasty, prosperity will knock on your door soon."
If this soon-to-be-graduate believed on fortune cookies, this would be quite comforting.  (Though what's up with the implication that i'm being hasty?)  Extra fun if one adds on the requisite "in bed"  :)
And speaking of jobs for graduates, my father sent me this, which excerpts from a piece in The Christian Science Monitor that says the job market is improving for this year's college graduates.  ("The expected salary range for bachelor's degrees in liberal arts today: $29,400 to $35,000, according to CollegeJournal.com."  Hotness.)

House meeting re: house closing procedures didn't actually inform us of what to do if one actually has damaged furniture.  ecox asked how the college notifies/bills you, and Patricia didn't know.  I had thought there was a sheet we got at the end of the year whereon you can mark any damage in your room, but maybe i'm conflating that with the sheet you get when you first move in.

My Inklings paper is so much academic bullshit in the vein of my Eyre Affair paper.  In a novel which i whine about being full of stock characters, i ended up arguing for subtlty and complexity of characterization.  Huh.  I still need to do my reading journal, but that's even easier than the paper and can be turned in next week.  I am so excited to finally be able to work on my seminar paper in earnest.  I thought i had read nearly all the modern English language LRRH variants in existence, but i just read an article in a 1982 issue of International Folklore Review which contains the following paragraph: "It should be noted that these three obscene versions did not appear in pornographic magazines but were printed in The Smith, a perfectly serious American literary publication.  There are, of course, sexual illustrations of Little Red Riding Hood along this line in hard-core sex magazines which are unsuitable for reproduction here, but it cannot be denied that sexual interpretations of fairy stories in all degrees from refinement to crudity have become a popular form of entertainment among adults."  They do reproduce a 1974 Playboy cartoon and a 1978 Punch one, though.  And the footnote to that paragraph might get used in my paper (whose topic is LRRH as a willing sexual participant): "An advertisement for sexual stimulators showed a picture of Little Red Riding Hood and the wolf with a variety of such devices and the caption 'The better to please you with, my dear.' Hustler, April 1978, 20."

I learned that Jane St. Clair wrote Voyager fic, including TNG crossover.  I, of course, refuse to read Voyager fic until i've watched all 7 seasons through.  I told Emma about the argument Cat and i had about TNG Q!sex given the Voyager canon, and she pointed out that if Q+human can have sex the Q way, shouldn't they also be able to the human way? ::hearts her::  I really need to rewatch that episode (preferably as part of a full canon tour, though).

Am considering hitting up the MFA Dance Concert on Friday and then leaving early to go to the One-Acts.  (The lack of Christopher Durang in the latter makes me sad.  But it's in the TV Studio rather than HF, which makes me think it's a different set of one-acts than usual.)

[livejournal.com profile] atpolittlebit points out a quote from "Life of the Party" (Angel 5.05) that could be seen to refer to Firefly.
hermionesviolin: (train)
Having to write a paper on Friday when i'm used to having Friday as an off day?  Totally messed up my conception of time.  I kept feeling like i should one more free day left.

I missed Biz and Cordelia preaching at HHHC Senior Sunday because i'd been asked to usher at First Churches.  My name was spelled correctly in the program, which was probably my biggest excitement about the whole thing.  Turned out it was Youth Sunday.  This kid Nick who looks about middle school age played "Gigue" from Sonata in D minor by Veracini, and he's not a prodigy, but he was really good -- certainly better than i ever was, though that's not saying a whole lot.  This girl Chelsea who's a freshman at NorthamptonHigh (to write NHS would just be too weird for me) did the sermon, and you could tell she was nervous 'cause she was talking fast and stumbling over what she was saying sometimes, but she was pretty good.  And Sasha not only did a handdrums piece but he also did a piece he wrote himself with guitar, singing (though i couldn't make out a lot of the words), and harmonica, that last of which means he wins at life.

Kelly got installed at Chicopee at 2pm, but obviusly i couldn't go.  I meant to ask Liza for her e-mail address.

I finished a whole set of website edits (which won't go live until Sunday) and as well as my MAT project.  (Why am i not motovated until it's like T minus 24 hours to deadline?)  It's a very traditional unit with reading quizzes and an exam including passage identification and all that, and i feel like i got lazy, but i'm a kind of an off-the-cuff type of girl, so my discussion outlines are only going to be so comprehensive.  And i'm honestly torn between feeling like i don't cover enough and feeling like i try to cover too much, since i'm still in Smith College English major mode rather than high school English class mode.  I think it's a reasonably comprehensive (for high school) unit though, and also flexible.

I didn't reread Charles Williams for Inklings class 'cause of sleep dep (the first time i did the reading i was sleep deprived and retained little, so i figured repeating that wouldn't help anything) but it turned out okay because she broke us up into groups in class and my group (highonsleepdepZia, SullenEmily, and some other girl) got the one about the Inklings phenomenon, which CZ hadn't intended initially, but when she realized it was us she made some crack about how we'd be good at it or know a lot or be argumentative or something. Anyway i remember thinking "Way to go having a rep," 'cause it's so true.

I think i might finally be under enough deadline pressure to actually make myself do all this work.

I went to the second batch of Eng. Dept. thesis presentations.  Turns out i actually know the Auden girl insomuch as i've had classes with her.  Was weird listening to the Space Trilogy presentation 'cause hello something i've acatually read (2/3 of).  And i had forgotten how brilliant J is.  And to my surprise, i found myself actually wanting to read her book.

In Renaissance Drama, Emma's reading John Ford's " 'Tis Pity She's a Whore" and told me i need to read it.  In fact i already have, so all is right with the world.  I read Angela Carter's retelling first, and frequently blame it for my incest kink.
I boggle that i'm the one of all my friends (by which i mean: the cohort i surround myself with here at Smith) who is nigh on unsquickable, has no TMI threshhold, etc.  Emma expressed surprise that i think of this as some sort of new development.  I think partly i still think of myself as being around people like Mimi and Allison.  And more generally being around people who are so much more sexually experienced (and interested in being sexually experienced) than i.  And the internalization of people's perceptions of me (the first time Mimi heard me swear -- back in high school -- she literally stopped in her tracks and made me repeat it because she couldn't believe it had come out of my mouth).




[livejournal.com profile] club_joss: book club-esque discussion of fanfiction.  Looks interesting.  It just started, and the current fic is a Spike/Xander, so i'm abstaining for now but am friending it to keep an eye on it.  (Speaking of which, i really should catch up on [livejournal.com profile] ats_nolimits at some point.)

I also added [livejournal.com profile] su_herald and [livejournal.com profile] meta_fandom to my flist, which i probably should have done a while ago (though there is the whole distraction=bad factor).  This is a really interesting personal essay on the power dynamics involved in rl sex, seguing into a discussion about writing chan, and then seguing back to rl.

Serenity trailer comes out on Tuesday, probably before the Hitchhiker movie.  I was so willing to go see Elektra over break to see the trailer, but i am not seeing HGttG and not going to the movies the last week of classes, and being spoiler-free is how i prefer to operate anyhow.  (Yes i know September 30 is a long way away.  But y'all are good at cut-tagging.)

From the zinesters list:
Are you still saddened by the demise of the teen magazine Sassy?? Do you have trouble understanding what all the hubbub about Sassy was about?? Have you ever ranted or raved about Sassy in a zine??

Kara Jesella and Marisa Meltzer are currently working on a book about Sassy, to be published by Simon, Farrar & Giroux, and are looking for articles about Sassy (positive, negative, whatever).

If you have printed, written, or read any such articles about Sassy in a zine (even if the focus of the piece is not Sassy itself), please contact Rebecca at rebecca.willa.davis@gmail.com.
I think i left some of my posters at home, ‘cause going through the ones i have here i know i own some other ones.  These are the ones i have in my room currently (that are free for the claiming):
One thing i will never live down is not shaking my class president's hand after getting my high school diploma.  I wasn't purposely snubbing him (i was indifferent to him) it was just that the way stuff was set up, he wasn't directly in my line of vision and i honestly forgot.  Some of the football players were on the periphery of my circles in high school (and then went to UMass Amherst, though i have yet to bump into them), so when they end up in the local paper my father saves them for me, but i had completely forgotten about the existence of this kid until my father e-mailed me the following:
"LB Alfred Fincher of UConn was taken by the Saints in the third round of the NFL Draft [...]  Fincher was the first player ever taken by the Saints out of Connecticut" -from the New Orleans Saints website
and more info from the NFL site
My high school class president will be playing for the NFL next year.  I'm feeling a little weird about my future right now.

So speaking of weird, i heart the Hitchhiker's Guide (book quotes, no movie) icons here.  And there are some good ones here.

Also: [livejournal.com profile] son_of_art on [livejournal.com profile] akronohten (in a thread here):
your own live journal would lead anyone to believe that you were "Bi", which is (as most people know) a term used by gay men who are still partly in denial. At best, it is the socially "light" label referring to people who still amount to part-time Sodomites.
I think "part-time Sodomite" is the best redonculous phrase i've heard recently.  I may need to adopt it.

So yeah, that deadline pressure i spoke of above.  ::runs away::  More link spam tomorrow.
hermionesviolin: animated icon of a book open on a desk, with text magically appearing on it, with text "tell me a story" framing it (tell me a story [lizzieb])
It's possible that my time would be better spent copying down interesting passages from stuff i've read recently for my own future reference since all of like 5 people comment on my LJ, but hey, the journal's really for me first and foremost -- though obviously not entirely since this does get edited with the awareness of audience and all that.

Wednesday-Saturday )

[livejournal.com profile] lasultrix says, "There's no such language as Irish Gaelic. There's a language called Scots Gaelic, but the branch of the Gaelic languages spoken in Ireland is just called Irish."
hermionesviolin: image of an old book with "Vampyr" on the over, text "It's my life" (obsessedmuch?)
So, people are listening to the Angel S5 DVD commentaries, and a few remarks are getting a lot of play.

Spike and Angel; they were hanging out for years and years and years. They were all kinds of deviant. Are people thinking they never... ? Come on, people! They're opened-minded guys!
-Joss Whedon commentary on "A Hole in the World"

I already had the perfect couple. It was Spike and Angel.
-Joss on "The Girl In Question"

[livejournal.com profile] doyle_sb4 has the Hole in the World commentary remark in fuller context.

much discussion )

Edit: Via [livejournal.com profile] mutant_allies: [livejournal.com profile] nothingbutfic talks further about authorial intent, slash, and queerness/homophobia on ME shows.
hermionesviolin: (train)
So, finishing The French Lieutenant's Woman at work on Monday was going to mean i got to sleep Monday night, but of course i caught up on LJ instead. And i was gonna make a Blackboard post, but it just didn't happen. I was like, "Sarah is crazy. Yes no maybe. Discuss." Yeah, it was bad.

I have MAT class during the Telling and Retelling film screening, which given my loathing of adaptations troubles me little. However, everyone seems to have hated the FLW movie, which makes me wanna watch it. I'm impressed with myself that i got the book read, but i kinda wish i could have read it more slowly, gotten more of the details. And dude, most obscure slash ever. (Thursday's presentation was on the Pre-Raphaelite Brotherhood. I have geek love.)

Oh, way to go online ordering. I picked up 12 books at the p.o. on Tuesday. [It makes me sad that one of them has an inscription dated 2001 of "Happy 19th Anniversary! Forever Yours"] I also have a shiny new (gold) check card.

I jumped into the commentary on Napoleon Dynamite in [livejournal.com profile] offbalance's journal, and was afraid it would go badly, but really i should have known better. As it turned out, the discussion enabled us both to better articulate our problems with the film and we turned out to actually be in agreement on a lot of things. And lo there was much rejoicing.

Conversation in [livejournal.com profile] wisdomeagle's journal about (un)popular fannish [Whedonverse] opinions was also good.

Imbolc, though not Groundhogs Day, makes it onto the Smith College Academic Planner for February 2. 6 weeks, what? I always forget that that's the long one. I live in New England, people. 6 weeks only brings us to the "official" end of winter, but New England winter often lasts beyond that.

Surprised by Joy got finished Tuesday night after all. Le bore. And, um, spiritual autobiography? Way more of a regular autobiography than one might have expected/hoped for. Plus, it makes me rather dislike Lewis, whom i had so wanted to like. And the ending? Dude, wtf? ::rages::

Class began with more of "Surprised by Joy: The Movie" (my title) which was worth watching only for the footage of Oxford (focus was on University, Keble, and Magdalen). Mostly i worked on rereading the last 2 chapters of Surprised by Joy to see if i'd missed something in the Conversion Narrative of Crap.

Then CZ did the usual (which Ruhi, listening to me at lunch, dubbed "call and response"). She asked us for items which contributed to Lewis' conversion and wrote each one on the board and talked about it for a few minutes before calling on the next person. There was one time a student said something and she disagreed and i was reminded of Lewis' talk about his father hearing what he thought you said and anyway i agreed with the student and wanted to discuss further but she called on someone else and we moved along.

She wondered aloud about how professors of Western Literature do it, how one can try to give a balance when Christianity so dominates amongs the big deal writers. This gave me an entry point to talk to her after class. I said that it's taught (and understood by many students) as a powerful narrative informing the works of these writers, so you learn a lot about the Christian narratives but it's not like you're being preached to. In contrast to how Lewis talks about always feeling like he has to keep the Christianity in the works of his beloved authors at bay. Yeah, Lewis is kind of psycho. He talks about Christianity pursuing him -- which is why i was surprised by a student mentioning him talking about free choice in his conversion. Yes, i said all that, and then i talked about how i was really frustrated about how the whole book he talks in great detail about everything and how it affected his spiritual growth and everything and then at the end it's basically "And then I converted. The end," and i was frustrated particularly because i'd heard about how he's so legalistic in his defense of Christianity and how he's written so many works of nonfiction with rational arguments for Christianity but the end of Surprised by Joy is such a cop-out and i was so angry. I think i ranted for a good solid 10 minutes. And i could feel the tears in my eyes -- because i had been so furious when i finished the previous night, and i hadn't had any opportunity to properly vent (3 handwritten pages in my reader response journal before i quit, but that didn't have quite the calming effect that actually talking to someone would have). She was glad that someone had such a "fiery" reaction to the book. Oh, and i politely mentioned my dislike for the fact that we have spent so much classtime that could be used for discussion instead watching a video that doesn't tell us much new. And after all this we chatted a bit about the stuff i wanna do in grad school, about stories that get told and retold. So yeah, i felt better.

I was also comforted by an e-mail she sent to the class later that night:
Subject: surprised by the ending of SURPRISED BY JOY?

Dear Inklings,

Thanks for a great class, and for the fascinating entries on Blackboard.

I had an interesting conversation with two Inklings members after class, who said they found the ending of Surprised by Joy a major letdown. After describing in such detail his childhood intimations of joy, his schoolboy pursuits and travails, his atheism and flirtation with the occult, and even his journey to theism, Lewis reveals very little about his grounds for belief in the Christian gospel. He takes us to threshold and drops us there. Why does he clam up at this point?

Also - Why does he speak of being pursued by the Christian God? (even here, one senses a literary imagination at work -- recalling Francis Thompson's "The Hound of Heaven")

Come to think of it, while he has his reader's attention, why doesn't he try to make a convincing case for Christianity? What is the real aim of this book?

I'd like to hear others' views on this during the first ten or fifteen minutes of class Monday.
We'll also have a chance to return to some of these questions when we read Mere Christianity.
And from a later e-mail
Monday February 7
FIRST TWENTY OR THIRTY MINUTES:
Discuss the last two chapters of SURPRISED BY JOY ("Checkmate" and "The Beginning"). We'll pay special attention to the three "moves" in the chess match which Lewis says brought him to Theism. And we'll consider the way his narrative changes (becoming more suggestive and even cryptic) once he begins to describe the move from Theism to Christian belief.
REST OF CLASS:
We'll begin our discussion of The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe. Please read the first nine chapters for Monday.

Weds. Feb 9
We'll continue discussion of LWW. Please read the rest of the book for Wednesday.

You will notice, I'm sure, the connection between the Socratic Professor Kirke in LWW and Lewis's tutor Kirk (Kirkpatrick, or the Great Knock). ("What DO they teach them in school?")
We got our presentation assignments and not only am i doing mine on my own (she had been talking about pairs, which some of them are) but mine is on "C. S. Lewis' Latin correspondence with the Catholic priest Don Giovanni Calabria." How perfect. (And other presentations include The Screwtape Letters, The Four Loves, C. S. Lewis' debate with Elizabeth Anscombe, and Tolkien in popular culture.) I think i'm doing my Lewis paper on C. S. Lewis and T. S. Eliot, and my Tolkien paper on Arthurian legend in LotR.

Me on Wednesday's dessert: "It's good but not great. I mean, it's just puff pastry with vanilla ice cream and Hershey's syrup."
Cat: "You make it sound so vulgar."
Kate: "You make everything sound vulgar, Elizabeth. It's your gift."

I missed RCFOS (if there was any this week) for
Robert Rosenblum, professor of fine arts, New York University, will present "The Art of Reincarnation: Picasso and Old-Master Portraiture," the second annual Dulcy B. Miller Lecture in Art and Art History on Wednesday, February 2, at 7 p.m. in Weinstein Auditorium, Wright Hall. The talk will offer a survey of Picasso’s life-long interest in portraiture and the particular ways in which he resurrects portraits from the annals of art history—works by El Greco, Velazquez, Goya, Ingres, Delacroix, and Manet—and transforms them into the friends, wives and mistresses of his own life.
Quite good, though sadly i was dozing off by the end (sleep-deprived in a dimly lit room...). Listening to Suzannah's introduction, i found myself wishing i had taken art history classes classes, so that i would have more narratives to draw on. And almost immediately in his talk, Rosenblum used the terms "quotations" and "paraphrase," and later on he talked about "translating into one's own language." Most of the artists he talked about (Old Masters i hadn't previously heard of, or contemporaries of Picasso also positioning themselves in an Old Masters tradition) had foreign names i couldn't quite transliterate, so i can't do much of a bullet list.
My favorite bit was that Picasso's "Weeping Woman" is often associated with his Guernica for obvious reasons, but it also draws on imagery of Our Lady of Sorrows, and later there's a sketch of Jacqueline Rocque which very clearly combines the two.
Other notes:
There's a painting of Jacqueline as Manet's Spanish dancer Lola (which also says interesting things about inserting people into nationalistic traditions).
This Picasso self-portrait is like Cezanne. Apparently he often did a painting in homage to an Old Master when one died. There's one that so echoes Gaugin's Spirit of Death Watching.
His portrait of Gertrude Stein was similar to some portraits of hulky men of state, and apparently Picasso joked a lot about her lesbianism and so she's usurping the male throne so to speak.
He also has a woman in an amchair and a woman with her finger on her temple (there are a bunch of these, actually) that echo somebody else -- tthe Ang (sp?) guy Rosenblum talked a lot about, i think.

The article (Robert A. Georges and Michael Owen Jones, Chapter 3, "Survival, Continuity, Revival, and Historical Source, from Folkloristics, 1995, pp. 59-89) we read for this week's seminar was largely rather lame. Example: The article begins with talk about ballads drawing on folklore, which we're going to spend some class sessions on later in the semester and which i'm actually interested in, but stuff like Animals can speak in ballads, notes [Evelyn Kendrick] Wells [in The Ballad Tree], a "vestige of" tometimistic belief in a kinship between them and human beings makes me wanna hit things.

We also read Jan Brunvand's The Vanishing Hitchhiker: American Urban Legends and Their Meanings, a book on urban legends as folklore. One of the discussion questions was
Does Brunvand's research and analysis of urban legends dissuade you from whatever truth you thought/think the tales contain(ed)? Do you believe that the legends grow out of documented or real incidents (for example the Mouse in the Coke and "Alligators in Sewers") or rather (as the author demonstrates so many times) have no discernable origins that we can detect? Do we care whether or not urban legends have a basis in reality, choosing to believe or enjoy them out of a "morbid curiosity" to "satisfy our sensation-seeking minds"? Is that truly the appeal behind the legends?
I am far too factually minded. I feel uncomfortable saying "I've heard..." or "Someone told me..." about anything, always feel the compulsion to fact-check it (though i don't always actually do so). And honestly, most urban legends don't interest me. Either they're obviously fictitious scary stories to be told over campfires or at sleepovers or they just sound like unfactchecked news items (e.g. finding a dead animal in one's food).
Simply becoming aware of this modern folklore which we all possess to some degree is a revelation in itself, but going beyond this to compare the tales, isolate their consistent themes, and relate them to the rest of the culture can yield rich insights into the state of our current civilization.
-page 2
That's the only aspect of urban legends that really interests me.
Legends can survive in our culture as living narrative folk lore if they contain three essential elements: a strong basic story-appeal, a foundation in actual belief, and a meaningful message or "moral."
-page 10

First, it is simply traditional to listen to and to appreciate a good story without undue questioning of its premises. Second, "belief" in an item of folklore is not of the same kind as believing the earth is round or that gravity exists. A "true story: is first and foremost a story, not an axiom of science. And third, the legends fulfill needs of warning (don't park!), explanations (what may happen to those who do), and rationalization (you can't really expect sensational bargains not to have strings attached); these needs transcend any need to know the absolute truth., The appeal and durability of a superb morbid mystery tale is as strong in folklore as in fiction or film, and the significance of a "folk" telling of such events can be as great for a scholar as its appearance in a popular-culture medium or its literature.
-on why urban legends don't get debunked (page 22)
A lot of the book was psychosexual explanations of urban legends, which i'm not a huge fan of, but it was food for thought anyway. (The less psychosexual explanations tended to be the rather commonsense ones that one doesn't need to read a book to think of.) And it was neat to learn that some urban legends have antecedents from ages back (the spider in the hairdo story for example; page 78: a 13th century tale of a woman vain of her hair upon whom the devil descended in the form of a spider).
As if the life history of this legend is not baffling enough, consider that there is a prototypical "Vanishing Hitchhiker" story (not the true ancestor of our legend) in the New Testament in which the Apostle Philip baptizes an Ethiopian who picks him up in a chariot, then disappears (see Acts 8:26-39).
-page 39
::loves:: (And it doesn't hurt that that's one urban legend i'm actually rather fond of.)

The Tatar radio interview started out as a review of stuff i knew, but there was some new stuff as well, so it wasn't a total waste of my hour. She talked about how a lot of the boys are simpletons and a lot of the girls are go-getters, and how various cultures have cinder-lad stories and Germany might well have had them. She said that in the Grimms tales there's always the child as survivor while HCA's are so tragic -- like The Little Match Girl, and she says it's important in a child story that child hero survive. She said that reading fairy tales is a way back into childhood for adults and way to mature for children. She said that good bedtime stories are exciting, and that that's one of her new projects (the sort of tension between the fact that you're reading kids this stuff to get them ready to sleep and the fact that stories they're gonna like are typically gonna be exciting), the other one being "wonder" in children's lit -- Alice in Wonderland and Peter Pan. They talked about stuff the whole family reads, with Tatar mentioning Harry Potter, Lenson saying he ran out of gas when they passed 700 pages and mentioning Lord of the Rings from his childhood and Tara mentioning Narnia. Minutes before the end of the broadcast Lenson mentioned fanfiction!!! He asked Tatar if she had heard of it and she had not. He said that readers of stuff like Harry Potter, "They decide they wish they'd written it. And so they do." They write novels, he said. He said he'd never heard of it until one of my students [he's a Comp-Lit professor at UMass Amherst] proposed writing a senior honors thesis on fanfiction. (From his tone, it sounded like he denied said student, but of course i e-mailed him.) Those who say literacy and writing is on the way out are wrong, he said, and Tatar agreed and mentioned book clubs. And at the close of the broadcast, he he encouraged the listeners to buy her new book from your local 'independent, co-dependent, or chemically dependent, but not regular dependent bookstore.'

I luff my daddy. He told the story of a new teacher at NHS mentioning, "My passport says I'm male." and then says, And I almost said, totally seriously, "Did you used to be?" (she's short and "feminine-looking" but she had a number of years between college and starting teaching at NHS so who knows what happened then?) But I didn't, cause I figured she might not take it in the spirit I meant.

And there's an out lesbian at my high school? I'm impressed.

More from my dad:


[livejournal.com profile] ats_nolimits 6.10: Girls' Night Out by [livejournal.com profile] ladycat777 and [livejournal.com profile] mpoetess
The title alone is enough to hook me (which isn't to imply that i don't read every episode anyway) and having read, i approve. Muchly.

Oh, and reccing fic reminds me that i got my website up on February 1 and didn't do a grand pimp because my inner perfectionist is cringing, but i suppose i really should put it out there. Me and the Text. Fics and recs and nothing political that you haven't seen before (assuming you've been here before). I have much love for the setup of Doyle's recs page, but i'm not sure i have the patience to go through and do mine that way. Or the time, really. I know my non-fandom time would be better spent writing feedback and recs blurbs than recoding a huge chunk of my website. Maybe it can be a summer project.

Oh, and [livejournal.com profile] amproof wants a rec of your favorite fic of your own.

Eowyn and Theoden vid to Tori Amos' "Winter" by [livejournal.com profile] wolfling and [livejournal.com profile] mogigraphia
I barely remember the story from the book, but i think the vid is the synopsized version, and anyway it made me cry (not like that's difficult to do).

One ficathon i'm not signing up for but whose concept i enjoy: The Gay (and Lesbian and Het) Sex Challenge
You get dealt 3 playing cards with sex positions on them and write a fic using one of those positions.

[livejournal.com profile] doyle_sb4 is an evil enabler. *looks at [livejournal.com profile] stagesoflove and [livejournal.com profile] 30_kisses* Though i think i'll just bookmark them for the ideas rather than actually signing up.

Who's done that "10 Things You Want to See More of in Fic" thing? I've seen 4 lists so far (doyle_sb4, jennyo, musesfool, fabu) and am culling from these and working on my own list. It's not like i don't have enough fic to work on, but i like the ideas (plus the idea of getting to point someone to a fic and say "See, it includes on of your ten" gives me a happy).
hermionesviolin: (dead (sexy))
So, we were in Shakespeare class talking about all the homosocial stuff in Coriolanus and Prof. Oram talked about how he prefers to use the term homosocial rather than homosexual for this play since the homosexual desire gets sublimated into other behavior, though he wasn't going to say anything silly (his word) like that Shakespeare wasn't interested in men since most the sonnets are to a man and he recommended Bruce Smith's Homosexual Desire in Renaissanance England :)

We continued discussion of the omgliekwhoa 4.5 and finished the play and there's the tragedy of the end and Prof. Oram was talking about how Aufidius is calculating from the very beginning of the union and it was making me sad. I was reminded of Emma and i talking recently about old skool Charles/Erik (Professor X and Magneto of the X-Men universe) and debating if it is the most tragic relationship evar. Canon narrative is of them on violently opposed sides, but back in the day they were very close friends, so you have this deeply tender relationship that you know even before you begin reading it is going to end tragically. I am in fact highly inclined to not read the pairing because it is so depressing. The only comparable relationship i can think of is if one did what Smallville is doing: have Clark and Lex be friends back in the day. But i don't think it's canon in any 'verse that they were friends back in the day. In X-Men it very much is.

Anyway, so class discussion was good but meanwhile part of my brain was thinking about all the work i hadn't done the past couple days and debating deferring grad school for 2 years to bartend and massage school. And then i got back my "But What If You Don't Like It?: The Role of Jaques in As You Like It" paper with the following comment accompanying the grade: "This is a very good rewrite, careful, independent and genuinely thoughtful. It's also a pleasure to read --- something important when one writes about comedy. I think you're a little hard on Jaques at the end of the play -- what he says to the various lovers is playful and generous -- but this is really good work. I think you might submit it for an English Dept. prize this spring."

And then i saw Danne, which was lovely.

And i had breakfast, which hadn't happened in days.

UMass discussion was good. We talked a lot about drugs, as has become usual. We also talked about religion, including the Lilith midrash and the theocratic nature of Tibet. Also from discussion: the editor of Maxim graduated from UMass with a Comp-Lit major; should Dunkin' Donuts have lox?; Hitler; Pox: Genius, Madness, and the Mysteries of Syphilis. And i got an extension on my paper.

I finally made myself start on my DSS paper. Realizing that it was a 6-8 rather than 8-10 page assignment was a pleasant surprise. But yeah, way to go having no bloody idea what i'm doing. *wants so badly to work on the Buffy/Bible/UPenn paper instead of all my real homework*

Grief counselor at tea today, so upon his arrival we all exited, with relative grace, and ended up having a hall party outside my door (since my door is across from the stairwell) and i learned that Corona is in fact not bad beer.

Lez made me go to ("The Lion, The Witch, and the Wardrobe") mocktail. I wore my sparkly dress and my hot boots. My new theory is that entire purpose of a mocktail (besides the food and entertainment) is everyone dressing up pretty so we can all admire the pretty and compliment each other a bajillion times.

The Smith Vibes and Brown's Bear Necessities performed. The Bears weren't bad, but they weren't all that good either. And the Vibes were way hotter. However, "inspired by the Vibes," the Bears did Sarah McLachlan's "Ice Cream" (which the Vibes had done in their set) and the soloist was this cute little guy whom i hadn't noticed before (and when he made announcements later he so had a Doyle-Irish accent) and i was all aflutter during the whole thing. And they did Bruce Springsteen's "Streets of Philadelphia" which then the Vibes did in their second set -- "inspired" by the Bears, of course.

It's bad that i was listening to John Mayer's "No Such Thing" and lyrics like they love to tell you "stay inside the lines," but something's better on the other side made me all gayly asquee. The performative little Asian man did Paula Abdul's "Straight Up" and there was a synchronized dance routine in the background and it's hard to not get a gay vibe from that and i loved it.

[livejournal.com profile] pardalis05 says my house is the best on campus second only to her own :) And the hot chocolate was declared "sex in a cup." It was from that (not so new anymore) chocolate place on Green Street that people keep recommending to me, so i have decided that finally purchasing myself a hot chocolate there will be my reward to myself when i finish this semester.

I went upstairs around 10:30 with the theory of getting some work done now that the party was over. I took off my shoes and put on slippers and went to go to the bathroom and then there was a party in my hall and that finally ended *cough* around 4:30. Yeah platonic Cat-cuddling and conversation with a rotating cast of characters. Though now of course the odds of my actually getting substantial work done on evol paper on Saturday go way down since, ya know, sleep and all.

Reminder to self: Go to The Mysteries of Chris Van Allsburg exhibit over Jterm.

I got a River/Jayne ficlet over on [livejournal.com profile] serenity_santa! (Located here.) I haven't read it yet, but ::loves on the fact of its very existence::

Also: [livejournal.com profile] merrylittleelf made icons for everyone in [livejournal.com profile] btvs_santa. I got a Kate/Lilah one. ::hearts:: (I also love the ones for tis_nat and thomasina75.)

Moving back to the gay subtext discussion which opened this entry:

Thanks to [livejournal.com profile] antheia for this Brokeback Mountain piece about Jake Gyllenhaal and Heath Ledger.

Not homoerotic, just boggling: Christopher Walken used to not look terrifying

Everyone has of course heard about the Alabama lawmaker who wants to ban all the gay books. Speaking of homoerotic subtext: *hearts on Jesse Walker*

People keep linking to this New Yorker piece about the anti-Kinsey folk. It contains such gems as Reisman also endorses a book called "The Pink Swastika," which challenges the "myths" that gays were victimized in Nazi Germany. What i was struck by, particularly since i had seen it referenced by an LJ-er as "Further proof that the Right has gone utterly bonkers" was the amount of ink spilled on her anti-(child) pornography work. Porn is one of those issues that so amusingly splits the "Right" and the "Left" and by splits of course i also mean unites. There are people on both sides who oppose it (you're exploiting the vulnerable, you're degrading sexuality, etc.) and there are people on both sides who support it (women should be free to flaunt their sexuality, people should be free to do whatever they want provided they aren't hurting other people, etc.) and obviously the positions are often nuanced (with both Right and Left pro-porn folk wanting women to engage in sex work because they want to not because they are forced to due to poverty, for example).

Linking to this Boston Globe piece, Glenn Reynolds quips, "Somebody should make a documentary on this." Yes, this is my political-diversity-in-the-academy hobby horse. Will be interesting if i ever get a professorship and get to be That Professor instead of That Student. Full text of the article (complete with links) located for posterity behind the cut )

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