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hermionesviolinbecause our brains make patterns out of things; we notice when similar things happen. people breaking up or having fights with significant others; people having family issues.
Family Weekend at Smith just ended, so there's been a lot of tension floating around.
I forget sometimes how unusual it is that i love my parents so much and get along with them and that we have mutual respect, that i am being independent but i will always have a place in their home, that they support me, that i don't feel embittered toward them, that i don't wish they had done their job differently (a few quibbles, sure, but nothing major), that i am proud to say i am so very much like both of them.
I whinge sometimes that i suck at doing work or that i seem to live in only-semi-voluntary social isolation, but i have it so incredibly good. I continue to be surprised by the praise and respect i elicit in peers and elders as well as surprising myself with what i accomplish. I have a network of so many amazing people.
I had a really good weekend and am actually getting a lot of work done this weekend. I know that many many of my people are happy. But i've still been feeling a little bit like this tonight, though not nearly as intense.
"everywhere you look, there's a face of somebody who needs you."
Family Weekend at Smith just ended, so there's been a lot of tension floating around.
I forget sometimes how unusual it is that i love my parents so much and get along with them and that we have mutual respect, that i am being independent but i will always have a place in their home, that they support me, that i don't feel embittered toward them, that i don't wish they had done their job differently (a few quibbles, sure, but nothing major), that i am proud to say i am so very much like both of them.
I whinge sometimes that i suck at doing work or that i seem to live in only-semi-voluntary social isolation, but i have it so incredibly good. I continue to be surprised by the praise and respect i elicit in peers and elders as well as surprising myself with what i accomplish. I have a network of so many amazing people.
I had a really good weekend and am actually getting a lot of work done this weekend. I know that many many of my people are happy. But i've still been feeling a little bit like this tonight, though not nearly as intense.
"everywhere you look, there's a face of somebody who needs you."
speaking as the mother figure
Date: 2003-10-20 10:58 am (UTC)people tell me to look at my children.
Your message reminds me that we are, all 4 of us, remarkably blessed. A little pool of grace in an oft-wounded and wounding world.
It is wonderfully gratifying to know you can feel close and comfortable and independent with us (the parentals).
Makes me feel all warm and fuzzy :)
And if you continue to hurt for those you love,
you will continue to grow as a deeply wonderful soul.
Sometimes the most kind thing you can say to someone is: "I wish I could make it better, but I know there's nothing I can do, and I care about you."
love,
mommy