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After leaving a comment on a friend's LJ last night, it occurred to me that "anxiety" would probably be a better term than "depression" for whatever brain-broke has been going on.

Possibly I should have slept in a couple of hours this morning -- as I was feeling a touch sleepy this afternoon.

I saw Katie at the gym this morning, and she asked what I was going to do with my day off.  I said I should really do something like clothes shopping that I never have time to do, but I never want to do that anyway, so I'm not really motivated.  (It occurred to me later that I could have tried to schedule a haircut for the morning, or helped Esther move -- sorry!)
I ended up doing almost nothing with my day -- which felt kind of like a waste at the time, but I know this weekend I was kind of wanting a fourth day of vacation.
I want a staycation.  I have long weekend trips planned for later in the summer, and I will enjoy those, but I want some days to not have to do anything.  Of course, I know exactly who I want to spend that time with, and... yeah.

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Good things about today:
  • I saw a mama turkey (sans babies) in the CAUMC yard.
  • My mom and I are confirmed for Pirates!, and we are getting dinner afterward at Pizzeria Uno.
  • I can has Reiki appointment.
  • Repair guy said the connection between the water hose and the tub ring is gone, so we'd need to replace both of them, and they don't make parts for machines this old anymore, so replacement washing machine it is :)  But he glued the hose so it'll stay for a bit.  (And he recommended the Kenmore 400 series at Sears, like $375.)
  • Sara said yes to getting celebratory drinks.
  • Patty S. responded to my facebook message of lo these many moons ago :)
  • After Rest and Bread, I bought a pack of Pepperidge Farm Soft Baked Milk Chocolate Chunk cookies, because whether it's hormonal or whatever I decided chocolate was a good investment.  And I made myself mac&cheese shells from a box for dinner.  (Annie's alfredo flavor, but still sufficiently comfort food.)
  • Ari and I are on the same LJ server (EggRoll).
Things I did well today:
  • I got up with my alarm, ate breakfast at home, and went to the [gym] 45min treadmill (4.3mph, 2.5incline).
    The cardio room had USA instead of TNT (I learned that Walker Texas Ranger has men and women of color in its opening credits sequence -- though most everyone I saw in the actual show was white) and NESN instead of CNBC -- ???  We already have ESPN, and this is a business school.
  • I replied to L's Monday night email.
  • I bought milk.
  • I washed dishes.
  • I did a load of laundry -- reading Scientific American Mind on the basement steps in case the washing machine started leaking again or anything.
  • I made the CWM deposit.
  • I went to CVS and picked up the thing I'd forgotten to buy last time I was at CVS.
  • I totes did best on bff poll.
  • I emailed L. about Friday night (night 1 of Firefly discussion with Jeff et al).
Things I am looking forward to (doing [better]) tomorrow:
["anything that you're looking forward to, that means you're facing tomorrow with joy, not trepidation," as Ari says]
  • Sacred Eros - Thursday, May 28, 7:00pm in the Perkins Room

    Our theme for this month is "Word, Image, Flesh, Spirit."  Sexually explicit writing and images have been around for centuries, made more widely available with the printing press and camera, and even more so with the Internet.  Some say such words and images are inherently bad and harmful -- or are they?  Can erotica be good for you, even spiritually inspiring?  Bring your opinions, your questions, your favorite examples, and some munchies or beverages to share.

    Sacred Eros is a monthly discussion group at Arlington Street Church, providing a safe and supportive space to explore questions about sexuality from a spiritual and ethical perspective.  All people over 18 are welcome, and participants are expected to respect one another and keep personal matters discussed confidential.
    Even though both Roza and Jonah can't go this week :(
I'm not actually dreading going back to work tomorrow (mostly), but there aren't things making me particularly excited about tomorrow.

Date: 2009-05-28 02:59 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] wisdomeagle
After leaving a comment on a friend's LJ last night, it occurred to me that "anxiety" would probably be a better term than "depression" for whatever brain-broke has been going on.

:( (Not that they aren't both barrels of fun, but I hate anxiety more.)

Ari and I are on the same LJ server (EggRoll).

<3

And discussion of porn sounds interesting. :)

Date: 2009-05-28 03:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hermionesviolin.livejournal.com
My anxiety is really localized, I think -- like, I look at the AAR and I get this mental block, but (at least today) I'm totally fine doing other stuff (I'm even doing an actual work project, not just obsessively refreshing LJ) and not thinking about the stuff I'm avoiding doing.

I'm feeling really optimistic about the Sacred Eros session.

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