burning like matchsticks in the face of the darkness

Remember when I was looking for teenage Fred/Tara summer vacation under a pier and even my copious resources failed me? Well I was going through fic I'd bookmarked to blurbify for recs ('cause today is the first of the month, which means site update) and lo, Tassels by glossing. This is the fic I had been trying to remember.


Oh, and the latest attention-whore/audience-participation meme going around is Ask me what happens after the end of one of my fics, and given how many of my fics have endings that were rushed, cut short, whatever, I kinda like this meme, though I fully admit to not asking anyone else so I clearly have no flist-participation karma coming my way. [Fic list here.]

[Edited to add the meme orgin because I am a completionist freak.]

You weren't logged in when you left 2 reply comments [on my CSI 6.02 entry] but I replied to them.  Just so's you know.


Also: Why can I not find that ficlet in which Buffy asks Giles to explain gay sex to her?  (The background is that Xander and Oz are together, but the point of the story is the Buffy and Giles interaction.)  I read it on LJ a while back -- mint green background, S2 style -- but now I can't find it.  I didn't care enough to bookmark it, but I was telling Emma about it this weekend and now I wanna find it to show her.

Edit: wisdomeagle wins! The fic is here.

My dad has now seen both cast versions of the NHS Beauty and the Beast and I'm kinda sad that I saw the cast I did 'cause my dad said the Belle we saw played it very young and naive whereas tonight's Belle played it far more world-weary, which I suspect I would have preferred.  But tonight was her final performance.  So it goes.

I read one of wisdomeagle's Fred/Tara pieces tonight and was reminded of another Fred/Tara I had read that I thought was by her but wasn't (and may not be that pairing, but I'm fairly certain it is).  And now I wanna find said fic.  It's two Whedonverse women back when they were teenagers, and I'm fairly certain it's summer and they meet (something of a summer teen romance thing) and my predominant memory is of them spending time under a pier . . . and this is so helpful, no?  And doyle_sb4's site is down so I can't poke the recs page there.  Le sigh. Doyle's recs page lacks Fred/Tara, which is woe. And I definitively can't find the story I'm thinking of in her recs. (And yes I did check to see if she had written the story, but I can't find it in her fic memories either.)

Also: The newest reason I need to stop reading fanfic and focus on writing my own is that I find myself wanting to write sequels to other people's stuff and hello, I have enough on my plate already.

So my brother comes home from work around 5:15 yesterday. (He works at Puddingstone, the used bookstore downtown where Joe and i met -- because we were both working there -- and which Joe loves way more than i do.) “Joe says Hi” he tells me. “Joe [last name withheld because i feel like it]?” “Yeah, he’s down at the store now.” So of course i had to call him on his cell. We had chatted on AIM a bit the night before, but we were basically, “Yeah, I’ve been really busy,” without really saying anything. So i called him and he said he’d just gotten home, hadn’t really expected to come home and was going to call me but then he saw my brother and figured i’d call him. 0:-) Anyway, he was still at the store, talking to Diane (the proprietor), so he said he’d call me back. I even kept people offline and was annoyed when he never called. So i called him this afternoon and he said he’d called around 7 last night and it had just rung and rung. Why is our phone messed up sometimes? So we were both sad about that, but i was happy that he really had called. He was gonna have family dinner, though, (that afternoon Sunday dinner thing) and then head back to school ‘cause he has work and class tomorrow, so he couldn’t really talk, but he said he’d call me this week. Yay! I’m honestly not crushing, but i am fond of this boy and would like to stay in touch with him.

Dragged myself to church today. This guy talked about the weekly men’s fellowship group at our church and said, “Come three times, and if you don’t feel blessed, don’t come back.” If that were true of my church i would be so gone so long ago. It made me think of a conversation i had with a couple of my high school teachers a year or two ago, though. I said i would send kids down to the office much more often than they do, and they said that part of it is a belief that if the kids are in the classroom there is at least the chance that they’ll learn something, whereas they can’t if they’re down at the dean’s office. I thought that was interesting.

There was this teenage boy at church today. Short spiked black hair with two long blue strips and a nose ring. Definitely looks a bit out of place in my church. I was definitely intrigued, though. I wanna talk to him. My mom said she’s seen him with Rebecca, the mother of the baby who was baptized last week. She said maybe he’s the father. She said his hair was orange last time.

Read Are Gay Rights Right?: A Controversy, a 1990 book by Roger J. Magnuson yesterday. Made me furious. Misperceptions and exaggerations galore, though even more annoyingly there were some good points made as well. I think i need to do some fiction reading. Getting sucked into research/political reading can be depressing.

Somehow i got on the Traditional Values Coalition mailing list, which is interesting. I get to hear about cool stuff like Nickelodeon’s My Family Is Different program (scheduled to air June 18) and interesting stuff like a new “Gender-Neutral” Bible and “the first transgendered pastor assigned to a Christian church in America.” The only problem is that in making me aware of all these news stories it means lots more research for me to do because i’ve inherited from my dad a need to do thorough research on issues before making up my mind on them. Semi-relatedly, i really need to get better about writing letters to people about stuff i care about, applauding or criticizing broadcasters, legislators, etc.

I’ve changed my default icon. It’s an icon i made with Angelfire GifWorks. Not great, but i like it. You can still vote for my new Tara icon, though. Eventually i’m going to give in to temptation and icon lust and get a paid account.

Yay for being able to continue being a Buffy addict even in my non-FX household. Last Sunday i got sucked into watching King of the Hill at 11:30 because there was this vegetarian girl and i thought it sounded like she was being voiced by Sarah Michelle Gellar (she was). After it was over my brother reminded me that Buffy reruns at midnight on Sundays. It turned out to be “This Year’s Girl,” which comes right after “Goodbye Iowa” which was the last FX rerun i saw. I’m not super excited about “Who Are You?” (tonight’s episode), but the rest of Season 4 (Superstar, Where The Wild Things Are, New Moon Rising, The Yoko Factor, Primeval, Restless) is great. Gonna have to tape some of them when we’re away in July. Then today my brother starts to channel surf and hits Buffy. “Beauty and the Beasts.” Good ep. The end reminded me of why B/A soulmate shipperdom runs so deep. I’d forgotten about Scott. He’s so sweet. And normal. (Is there Buffy/Scott fic anywhere?) 'Course that probably means he would be too normal, unable to cope with the whole Slayer thing. Riley had issues, but Buffy didn’t have to hide Slayer stuff from him. She didn’t even have to protect him from it, much, which seems to be a recurrent theme in her relationships (with everyone, not just dating), the problem of having to protect people from the hazards of Slayerness. Yes, i am an addict. So this summer will be almost all of Season 3, then most of Season 4 Sundays at 6, and the rest of Season 4, then Season 5 Sundays at midnight.