entry #2000

[hermionesviolin]

That i've made this many entries doesn't surprise me now like i suspect it would have a little over 3 years ago when i first got an LJ and only knew a handful of people on LJ.  Though looking back over my anniversary posts, i seem to average about 700 posts/year every year.

Once upon a time, truepenny wrote a manifesto.  I tend to look back at it on anniversaries, to affirm and remind myself of my ideal.

This is my mantra: I am writing these posts on the tails of an armada of kites--dragonflies and cranes and glorious dragons--and letting the kites go. If someone else finds one of my kites, reads the post, and enjoys it, that's fantastic. If they send a kite back to me, that's even better. But the point is not the answer; the point is sending the kites in the first place. (In other words, the LJ is not a popularity contest. I will not obsess about it.)

Pursuant to this conceptualization, I am making myself three promises.

1. I will not dumb myself down or apologize for being smart.

2. I will not be embarrassed or defensive about liking something which other people think is a piece of shit, or vice versa.

3. I will choose what I want to write about but I will not censor myself. My vocabulary can range across as many registers as it damn well pleases. I will not be afraid to say what I think.

I try to always be conscious that anyone could be reading this, and i don't f'lock any entries (for a variety of reasons).  If you wanna lurk or if you wanna add this journal, go ahead.  If what i'm writing no longer fits your interests and you wanna take me off, go ahead.  I read everyone i have friended, so i tend to project and assume that everyone who has me added reads me regularly, though i realize that many people read with filters, and i try to remind myself that that is their perogative.  And i put pretty much my entire life on this thing, so i promise i won't be offended if you skim over stuff that doesn't interest you.  Even obsessive completionist me sometimes skims entries on her flist.

I've been in one of my "I hate everybody" moods recently.  I'm an obsessive completionist and read every person on my flist (though i frequently filter out communities due to time constraints) and am thinking perhaps it's time to prune.  I'm always torn between being a nosy whore for knowledge and thinking "Well what am i getting out of having this person on my reading list?"  And yes i do see the irony in the fact that Little Miss "Everyone should engage in dialogue withe people who don't agree with them, and maybe even friendships will be formed" hates most people.