[Second Monday after Epiphany] joy sadhana

[hermionesviolin]

I got up around 10am. I spent an excessive amount of time on Tumblr and left the house around 3pm. I went to Goodwill and obtained a shirt. I went to Cambridgeside Galleria and tried out the Gap (1969 Curvy pants do not wanna fit right on me in whatever size, I think, and then I quit) and Sears (Covington and Apostrophe, the smallest size petite pants they had were too big for me; I could have worn them -- all the pants I currently own are even more too big for me -- but I am trying to invest in clothes I actually actively want; so I am making a note to look online for the next smallest size) and Ann Taylor Loft (I found a pair of pants that arguably fit me, but I wasn't loving the way they hung plus they don't have pockets) and browsed Charlotte Russe and H&M but couldn't bring myself to actually try anything on.

There is a part of me that wants to get rid of all the clothes I own which I dislike for whatever reason, but then I will really have nothing to wear. Ugh, clothes. (My primary concern atm is what do I wear to my grandfather's memorial service, but I am also really weary of my suboptimal work attire.)

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"Joy Sadhana is a daily practice in the observation of joy."
-mylittleredgirl [more info]
The people that walked in darkness have seen a great light. And they that dwell in the land of the shadow of death, upon them hath the light shined. (Isaiah 9:2, Handel's Messiah)

Good things about today:

• I got to sleep in.
  
• One reason I barely prepped for SE is because I suspected it would be just me and R. and D., but 2 other people came, and we had a decent discussion.
  

Things I did well today:

• I clothes-shopped.
  
• I participated as ~co-lead at SE.
  

Things I am looking forward to (doing [better]) tomorrow:
["anything that you're looking forward to, that means you're facing tomorrow with joy, not trepidation," as Ari says]

• I have an increasingly long CWM writeup, but I'm actually kind of looking forward to being back at work and being in a different headspace.
  
• FCS DADA ("Jesus as Savior")