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hermionesviolinMeh. Don't want to process, just want to talk to the people in question, but that's not feasible. I disapprove.
I find it interesting that my reaction to having "compassion fatigue" is to want to hear about more people's lives rather than to want to talk about my own -- though I suppose it makes sense since I don't want to rehash the "Well, what's going on in my life is being concerned about various beloveds," and it's not like I'm specifically seeking out more stuff to worry about (which is not to say that you shouldn't talk to me if you're going through a rough time).
Actually, it occurs to me that I'm not necessarily reacting out of/against compassion fatigue at all but rather out of (duh) a lack of connection/interaction with friends. The lack of this with specific beloveds is being exacerbated by/is exacerbating how much I feel the lack of it with various other friends. (This is not a slam on y'all -- we're all busy.)
"Joy Sadhana is a daily practice in the observation of joy."
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mylittleredgirl [more info]
Do not be afraid, I am with you
I have called you each by name
Come and follow Me
I will bring you home
I love you and you are mine
-"You Are Mine" (David Haas)
Friday, January 23, 2009
Five good things about today:
1. Sara said, "Thank you for helping to keep me sane this week."
2. lunch with ladyvivien's friend (complete with examining thegay early Americans “beginning of commercial credit and the modern world” plaque)
3-5. LEM book group started off kind of slow -- it was scheduled for 6-8pm and L. and I got there after 6:15 (rush hour traffic) and dinner was still in the works and the smattering of people present were mostly just kind of sitting there (most all of us were overslept and/or on the edge of being sick) -- but actually went better than I'd expected.
I had two platefuls of vegetarian Pad Thai and some chocolate chip cookies.
At one point, someone came in late and we 3 on the couch said we could move over, that she didn't need to get another chair (the couch comfortably seats 4) and as L. scooched over next to me, her knees up to her chest, I joked "Because I hate having you close to me" and put my arm around her, and it occurred to me that we probably coded as a couple, which amused me.
It's hard to have a good discussion about a book only partway through, especially when it's so wtf-y as Lilith, but we actually talked about lots of interesting stuff (and people with handheld internets looked up stuff like Celtic symbolism as we discussed *squee*). We didn't wrap up until like 10pm.
L. and I sat on the couch chatting afterward while folks cleaned up (the kitchen is only so big) and she seemed in better spirits than she had earlier this week.
Three things I did well today:
1. [gym] 30+min in the weight room
2. was not a basketcase about not getting a response to an email
3. finished the assigned reading of George MacDonald's Lilith for LEM book group session (finished it while waiting for dinner to be finished, but still)
Two things I am looking forward to (doing [better]) tomorrow:
["anything that you're looking forward to, that means you're facing tomorrow with joy, not trepidation," as Ari says]
1. sleeping in!
2. game night at First Church Somerville UCC
"Joy Sadhana is a daily practice in the observation of joy."
-mylittleredgirl [more info]
Do not be afraid, I am with you
I have called you each by name
Come and follow Me
I will bring you home
I love you and you are mine
-"You Are Mine" (David Haas)
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Five good things about today:
1. I got to sleep in! (I went to bed around 1:30, woke up around 9:30, went back to bed, woke up around 11:30 and stayed up -- what woke me up that time actually was the Red Cross calling; I now have an appointment to give blood again)
2. I'd emailed Molly after what Gary said on Wednesday about Molly having talked about there being Republicans in the congregation, and she emailed me back this morning and said, in part, "thanks Elizabeth--something I've thought about a lot, how to offer that welcome and hold that safe and sacred space"
3. Fanfic, I have missed you. (Reading, that is. Though back when I actually wrote? Yeah, that was good times, too.)
4. Walking to game night in the winter air was really enjoyable.
5. Game night itself did not suck. I got there a bit after the official start time and knew barely anyone there and wasn't excited about any of the game options, but I stuck around and Althea and Gary showed up and we played Shear Panic, which, seriously, who invented this game? Christy was explaining it, which took like a million years, and the first couple rounds I was feeling like, "My brain hurts; I want to go home." but after a few rounds I actually had most of it in my head -- though I was glad that Shane stuck around to answer questions (though really we could have just referred back to the instructions booklet). Some other folks played VisualEyes, which is a much more straightforward concept.
Three things I did well today:
1. I did a load of laundry.
2. I IMed people.
3. I went to game night even though I didn't really want to, because I recalled enjoying it last time and knew socializing would be good for me.
Two things I am looking forward to (doing [better]) tomorrow:
["anything that you're looking forward to, that means you're facing tomorrow with joy, not trepidation," as Ari says]
1. seeing how CHPC and CWM do "Sacred Conversations on Race" Sunday (FCS UCC is doing a "Sacred Conversations on Race" project, and apparently this Sunday a number of other Davis Square congregations "have also committed to making this a Sunday in which they address race in their congregations")
2. possibly watching some figure skating with my housemate before CWM
I find it interesting that my reaction to having "compassion fatigue" is to want to hear about more people's lives rather than to want to talk about my own -- though I suppose it makes sense since I don't want to rehash the "Well, what's going on in my life is being concerned about various beloveds," and it's not like I'm specifically seeking out more stuff to worry about (which is not to say that you shouldn't talk to me if you're going through a rough time).
Actually, it occurs to me that I'm not necessarily reacting out of/against compassion fatigue at all but rather out of (duh) a lack of connection/interaction with friends. The lack of this with specific beloveds is being exacerbated by/is exacerbating how much I feel the lack of it with various other friends. (This is not a slam on y'all -- we're all busy.)
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mylittleredgirl [more info]Do not be afraid, I am with you
I have called you each by name
Come and follow Me
I will bring you home
I love you and you are mine
-"You Are Mine" (David Haas)
Friday, January 23, 2009
Five good things about today:
1. Sara said, "Thank you for helping to keep me sane this week."
2. lunch with ladyvivien's friend (complete with examining the
3-5. LEM book group started off kind of slow -- it was scheduled for 6-8pm and L. and I got there after 6:15 (rush hour traffic) and dinner was still in the works and the smattering of people present were mostly just kind of sitting there (most all of us were overslept and/or on the edge of being sick) -- but actually went better than I'd expected.
I had two platefuls of vegetarian Pad Thai and some chocolate chip cookies.
At one point, someone came in late and we 3 on the couch said we could move over, that she didn't need to get another chair (the couch comfortably seats 4) and as L. scooched over next to me, her knees up to her chest, I joked "Because I hate having you close to me" and put my arm around her, and it occurred to me that we probably coded as a couple, which amused me.
It's hard to have a good discussion about a book only partway through, especially when it's so wtf-y as Lilith, but we actually talked about lots of interesting stuff (and people with handheld internets looked up stuff like Celtic symbolism as we discussed *squee*). We didn't wrap up until like 10pm.
L. and I sat on the couch chatting afterward while folks cleaned up (the kitchen is only so big) and she seemed in better spirits than she had earlier this week.
Three things I did well today:
1. [gym] 30+min in the weight room
2. was not a basketcase about not getting a response to an email
3. finished the assigned reading of George MacDonald's Lilith for LEM book group session (finished it while waiting for dinner to be finished, but still)
Two things I am looking forward to (doing [better]) tomorrow:
["anything that you're looking forward to, that means you're facing tomorrow with joy, not trepidation," as Ari says]
1. sleeping in!
2. game night at First Church Somerville UCC
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mylittleredgirl [more info]Do not be afraid, I am with you
I have called you each by name
Come and follow Me
I will bring you home
I love you and you are mine
-"You Are Mine" (David Haas)
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Five good things about today:
1. I got to sleep in! (I went to bed around 1:30, woke up around 9:30, went back to bed, woke up around 11:30 and stayed up -- what woke me up that time actually was the Red Cross calling; I now have an appointment to give blood again)
2. I'd emailed Molly after what Gary said on Wednesday about Molly having talked about there being Republicans in the congregation, and she emailed me back this morning and said, in part, "thanks Elizabeth--something I've thought about a lot, how to offer that welcome and hold that safe and sacred space"
3. Fanfic, I have missed you. (Reading, that is. Though back when I actually wrote? Yeah, that was good times, too.)
4. Walking to game night in the winter air was really enjoyable.
5. Game night itself did not suck. I got there a bit after the official start time and knew barely anyone there and wasn't excited about any of the game options, but I stuck around and Althea and Gary showed up and we played Shear Panic, which, seriously, who invented this game? Christy was explaining it, which took like a million years, and the first couple rounds I was feeling like, "My brain hurts; I want to go home." but after a few rounds I actually had most of it in my head -- though I was glad that Shane stuck around to answer questions (though really we could have just referred back to the instructions booklet). Some other folks played VisualEyes, which is a much more straightforward concept.
Three things I did well today:
1. I did a load of laundry.
2. I IMed people.
3. I went to game night even though I didn't really want to, because I recalled enjoying it last time and knew socializing would be good for me.
Two things I am looking forward to (doing [better]) tomorrow:
["anything that you're looking forward to, that means you're facing tomorrow with joy, not trepidation," as Ari says]
1. seeing how CHPC and CWM do "Sacred Conversations on Race" Sunday (FCS UCC is doing a "Sacred Conversations on Race" project, and apparently this Sunday a number of other Davis Square congregations "have also committed to making this a Sunday in which they address race in their congregations")
2. possibly watching some figure skating with my housemate before CWM