Certainly there's more you *could* be doing to "put yourself out there," but it's tough to discern how much pushing of one's boundaries is healthy and what's gonna lead to nervous breakdown. Obviously my understanding of your time at Yale is filtered by how you choose to present it on LJ, but I do think it's not just wishful thinking on your part.
I don't interpret you as reactionary. You sometimes do the twitchy reacting against things that I do (though what I twitch against and what you twitch against are usually different), but to me "reactionary" implies a thoughtlessness, and your reactions are strongly rooted in having thought a lot about things.
Hey, reevaluating is not mutually exclusive from longing for stability and rootedness. You've said yourself any number of times that you believe/value things (theology, liturgy, etc.) now that you never would have imagined doing so years ago.
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Date: 2006-11-25 09:02 pm (UTC)I don't interpret you as reactionary. You sometimes do the twitchy reacting against things that I do (though what I twitch against and what you twitch against are usually different), but to me "reactionary" implies a thoughtlessness, and your reactions are strongly rooted in having thought a lot about things.
Hey, reevaluating is not mutually exclusive from longing for stability and rootedness. You've said yourself any number of times that you believe/value things (theology, liturgy, etc.) now that you never would have imagined doing so years ago.