Church-seeking is complicated by the fact that I'm not sure I actually believe in Christianity.

I know exactly what you mean. I was talking to my friend Lisa today about spirituality. We frequently do this anyway, but reading your posts has made me think about spiritual issues a little more closely than I would otherwise. (Which is actually my modus operandi; I feel bereft that I am not spiritual. Yet my solution is to just not think about it LOL) Anyway, I was telling Lisa that my major problem is faith. I feel like if I decide that I want to be Christian, then I have to really believe it. All of it, including the church policy issues that I disagree with.

Lisa is heavily influenced by Eastern religions; I find them fascinating, but I can't quite wrap my head around the little reading I've done.