and now I'm crying
May. 5th, 2010 09:25 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hermionesviolinI had a good day, and I had a joy sadhana list in my head and everything, and I surprised myself by not crying at Rest and Bread tonight -- until I communed Laura Ruth and I could feel myself getting choked up, and then I cried a little during the Benediction end of the closing song ("Walking With You Is My Prayer").
Keith had provided snacks for afterward, and I ended up not leaving until like 8:20, and now I'm finishing an email to Laura Ruth and I'm crying.
Before service she asked me to come up to her office, and she gave me a copy of Nan Merrill's Psalms for Praying (which we have often used in Rest and Bread). Merrill uses "Love" for Deity, which Laura Ruth referred to as "the ultimate inclusive language," and Laura Ruth said she keeps giving her copy of this book away, and "in the lineage of giving this book to women I adore..." Yeah, referencing that in my email was what got me crying.
And part of why I was crying writing that email is because I was primed -- the email I read right before it was about someone I love possibly leaving in 2 years, which hit me hard (even though it's totally a possibility we've talked about before) probably because hi, primed, Laura Ruth is leaving.
Keith had provided snacks for afterward, and I ended up not leaving until like 8:20, and now I'm finishing an email to Laura Ruth and I'm crying.
Before service she asked me to come up to her office, and she gave me a copy of Nan Merrill's Psalms for Praying (which we have often used in Rest and Bread). Merrill uses "Love" for Deity, which Laura Ruth referred to as "the ultimate inclusive language," and Laura Ruth said she keeps giving her copy of this book away, and "in the lineage of giving this book to women I adore..." Yeah, referencing that in my email was what got me crying.
And part of why I was crying writing that email is because I was primed -- the email I read right before it was about someone I love possibly leaving in 2 years, which hit me hard (even though it's totally a possibility we've talked about before) probably because hi, primed, Laura Ruth is leaving.