No, people mustn't refuse to link weight and health. If only I could lose thirty more pounds, my endocrinologist says, I would not have active type II diabetes, in his opinion. He says I could stop worrying so much if I could lost FIFTY more pounds. So why don't I "just do it"? AM I trying to prove something? Am I just a weak, spineless lazy worthless self-indulgent jellyfish? Are there other issues at work here? Is it partly because of the steroids I occasionally take for other conditions, or the endocrine issues I have, or what? I don't know. All I know is that YES, my health would improve if I could lose weight. If I had one wish, I am ashamed to say, I would not use it to end world wars and conflict or make everyone happy or give everyone else in the world his/her heart's desire (which would probably backfire, as it does in all the fairy tales), but I would wish to be a size eight with no fat rolls or abnormal loose skin or whatnot. That is how important not being fat is in this society. And yet . . . and yet. I guess I *am* just a worthless etc., but at least I'm funny.
And I can play the piano pretty well. My teacher just said I'm advanced level. Not that the world gives a flip! But perhaps some fat people are worthy to live, after all. . . .
Re: That's not the point
Date: 2010-03-03 05:19 am (UTC)And I can play the piano pretty well. My teacher just said I'm advanced level. Not that the world gives a flip! But perhaps some fat people are worthy to live, after all. . . .