2003-03-26

hermionesviolin: an image of Buffy from the episode "Once More With Feeling," looking to the left away from the viewer, with flames in the background, with orange animated text "I want the FIRE back / so I will walk through the FIRE" (fire)
2003-03-26 12:48 am

"you ever have that dream where you open your mouth and you try to scream?"

  • Monday i did a variety of errands including purchasing a new round hairbrush because mine broke and getting lots of ones for BeantownZinetown6 (and a nice lady from my church back home will be driving me home on Sunday).
  • I also called and made an appointment to see Margaret Bruzelius (Dean of the Sophomore and Junior Classes, College Hall 23) before my Women’s Studies class on Wednesday to discuss transferring Oxford credits to Smith.
  • Tuesday i gave Smith their money for this semester so the hold should be off my record soon. I also paid my phone bill.
  • Then i went to one of the Language Acquisition computer lab sessions. I think i will be spending quantity time in the Bass statistics lab for this research paper, but despite the oft-unwieldiness of the program, i think i understand it and i also think i will be able to write a good paper.
  • And i got a 90% on that exam (which counts for 30% of my grade in that class)!
  • I left Bodywise (Love Your Body Week is next week!) after an hour to watch Buffy because i have priorities like that.
  • I finally went through the magazines i got from Norwood over break and am doing my Women’s Studies paper (due Friday) on the Maybelline ads in Seventeen magazine.
  • I finally got around to filling out my 1040EZ tonight. (Will photocopy at work Wednesday afternoon and then mail.)
  • I am bitter that i will be missing this week’s Angel because of a group meeting, but my family will be taping it for me, and i will watch it when i get in on Friday.
I am feeling more capable of handling the nine million and seventeen things i have left to do.

Oh and speaking of my competence... At lunch today, Ria was complaining about the group presentations in Michael’s class. (I find them largely pointless and will be talking to him about them at the end of the semester.) She said she took two speech classes at her previous college, and stuff that her professor told her not to do, told her she would fail if she did, people giving these presentations do. Also, people don’t know when to shut up. She said i’m the only person she listened to because i’m her friend and she figured i’d have intelligent stuff to say and i did and i was the only person in my group who didn’t have a notebook. I was flattered.

I used to be free-spirited, now i’m just free of sleep.

There are 43 days left in which to do everything that remains for the semester. This is terrifying.

ExpandIt's difficult to go through a magazine for the ads and not read ANYthing in it. )
hermionesviolin: photoshoot image of Emma Caulfield (who plays Anya), looking to the right and smiling, with text "I do it for the joy it brings" (i do it for the joy it brings)
2003-03-26 09:27 am

I have a flight!

STATravel.com still wasn't working this morning, so i called and booked my flight that way. Fleet sent me a Total Access Check Card last week, which means i can use it like a debit card and i am so thrilled, because that meant i could actually pay for my ticket.

July 5: 6:40pm Boston -> JFK -> Heathrow 9:10am July 6
August 15: 6:05pm Heathrow -> Boston 8:20 same day

$598.70 including tax and some AA charge.

(And yay multi-tasking. I read up on American Airlines carry-on info while i was on hold.)

I booked a plane ticket! To London! I feel so grown-up!
hermionesviolin: photoshoot image of Emma Caulfield (who plays Anya), looking to the right and smiling, with text "I do it for the joy it brings" (i do it for the joy it brings)
2003-03-26 05:26 pm

Dude, (Lizzie and) i OWN that May 3 invite list.

It smelled like summer rain when i left work today, wet asphalt and all.

And then it started to pour.

Rain makes me happy.
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2003-03-26 06:53 pm

"if you need to crash then crash and burn you're not alone"

Why am i an English major? I don't like any of the classes?

No, wait, why am i a student? Fall semester offerings are nothing.

Yes, registration packet in my mailbox today. Doug is teaching ENG 200 and i'm not sure what else. Michael's teaching the Modern British Poetry class i've already taken and ENG 199 (which i also already took, with a different professor). The offerings for all the departments are horrible. Here's what my fall schedule looks like.

SPN 366 Federico Garcia Lorca TR 3-4:50pm
I'm intimidated because i haven't taken a Spanish lit class (or done anything serious with my Spanish) since Fall '01.

ESS 955 Self-Defense M 7:30-9:10pm
1 credit and yes i really will go. (This semester i figure it's just as well because if i were taking this class i couldn't go to the Lenten book study.)

AAS 245 Harlem Renaissance TR 1-2:30pm
Kevin Quashie. Need i say more?

LOG 100 Valid & Invalid Reasoning MWF 11-12:10pm
I am hoping this class lives up to Annie and Marnie's hype and also that it doesn't kick my ass.

RUS 336 Russian Fairy Tales W 7:30-9:30pm
I am assuming, hoping, this is in translation 'cause woot, fairy tales. (Which reminds me, must e-mail Betsey Harries about offering her Gender & Fairy Tales class again.)

ENG 120 The Gothic in Literature TR 10:30-11:50am
Just because. If anyone thinks Nora Crow is the devil or anything, warn me know.


For those keeping score, that's 21 credits. And Dean Bruzelius gave me the paperwork to transfer my Oxford credits no problem, so that will bring my total extra credits to 15 (1 credit shy of an entire semester load) assuming i don't drop anything this fall (and i am keeping dropping as a serious possibility). And yet i'm not accelerating. Why am i insane?

I should also attend one of those PRAXIS workshops (mandatory to get PRAXIS funding) -- which requires unearthing the e-mail and comparing it with my schedule -- and pull out that list of places i might want/get an internship at and apply to some more of them.

Bruzelius said that the Student Aid Society rarely gives one person more than $500, just because they don't have that much money, but i might be able to swing $750 ($150 per UMass credit). I e-mailed Don Andrew (International Study Office) as to how much i might expect from there, because the form says, "checks may not be issued if you are not granted the full amount requested," and he said, "Until I have your app, I don't know how much I can give you, and until I have all the apps (after Apr 11) I don't know how much I can give to each. The point is not to ask for more than you absolutely need to be able to go. For now, just submit the form." So i'm gonna finalize my budget and hopefully get these apps mailed off before the weekend.
hermionesviolin: black and white photo of Emma Watson as Hermione, with text "hermionesviolin" (hermione by oatmilk)
2003-03-26 08:18 pm

Only(?) at Smith.

Smithies (and yes, lots of people all over) are protesting the war by not going to any classes tomorrow. There will be rallies and teach-ins and such. Thurston’s doing one of the teach-ins, so i’m sad that i’ll miss that, but 9:30-12 i am definitely in class. (And why don’t they tell you where the teach-ins are, anyway? Dean Walters is giving one in Wright Auditorium at 2:45, so i may go to that one because Kim cancelled class, and it's Jennifer Walters.)

Honoring the student strike, Kim cancelled class for Thursday, recognizing that not everyone in the class necessarily opposed the war but saying that we should take the time to think about the issue and inform ourselves. She said it’s important to listen to the arguments of, and be sensitive to, other people who disagree with you. She said that anyone who is absolutely sure of their position knows more than she does, ‘cause she doesn’t know everything (because one can never know everything). She also said that education is about moving out of your comfort zone, and i wondered if i have a comfort zone. I’m always problematizing things, having issues with things, coming at things differently than those around me. She also said something like we don’t have the right to be complacent, and i had to take issue with that a little, because i think some people need to avoid issues, for their own emotional/psychological well-being, and i think that’s entirely valid. [Yes, as Allie pointed out, everything is either “valid” or “problematic” according to me -- and sometimes both ;)]

In Soc class on Tuesday we watched the FX docudrama The Pentagon Papers. Watching it reminded me of what i had only known vaguely and intellectually before -- that a lot of the modern distrust of the government comes from Vietnam. Four presidential administrations. Wow; i hadn’t realized it went back that far. But somehow, i think the reality of Watergate and Vietnam and everything have made the government less likely to engage in such conspiracies, knowing the possibility that it could blow up in their faces again. But then, who would ever have thought we would have such infringement upon civil liberties in the name of homeland security, so perhaps i am just naive.

The student strike reminds me in some ways of the preppy guy who spoke at the War Resisters of America thing at Haverford College in 1969 in the movie. He said he was your basic born-with-a-silver-spoon kid, but that he was going to go to jail because he opposed the war. He said he didn’t want to register as a conscientious objector and be brushed off as some dilettante dabbling in ideology, that he was going to go to jail, which would mark him for life and prohibit him from attaining such high positions as he had always been expected to attain, but that he would wear that mark with pride. My understanding of conscientious objector status is that it’s something of a process, otherwise anyone wanting to avoid the draft for any old reason would claim it, but perhaps i’m wrong or perhaps it was easier back then. But my major thought was that he is wealthy and privileged and therefore that black mark won’t hurt him much. Not only is this something of a class issue in that people in a lower class who had more going against them would be more hurt by such a black mark but he will still go on and be successful, but while people over in the war area are fighting and dying and suffering. It’s essentially a make believe sacrifice he’s making. And writing about it now it reminds me of all that “I’m more oppressed than you. ... Look, see, I was discriminated against too. ... I have more [insert subculture adjective here] cred that you. ... etc.” crap. Go out and DO something, don’t just make a statement. No, that’s too simplistic. Making a statement is good. But be careful how you do it. Go for effectiveness over ego-stroking.

Offices of the College send all-college e-mails, but student orgs use their own mailing lists and often utilize the phonemail system (send a message to the HPs and have them forward it out to the members of their respective houses) as well as of course flyering/chalking the campus. Smith anti-war students have frequently sent mass e-mails advertising protests and related events recently.

I don’t think i actually have a copy of the Smith Student Handbook, but a Jolter says that on page 30 it forbids the use of college e-mail for “canvassing,” and it makes sense to me that the college policy would be something like that.

That's what we need! A walkout to protest inappropriate use of Smith email. Who's with me?

we are in the middle of war, people are dying, business cannot go on as usual. If this means "abusing" the college's e-mail list then so be it, i am in total support of these people.

Ah, let’s break the law (or, in this case, college rules) because we are at war. That’s always such a good idea.

And of course it’s a slippery slope, because if people can mass e-mail asking people to oppose the war, then surely supporters of the war should be able to counter, and oh, it could become like those zinesters list “discussions” of old. (Sadly, [livejournal.com profile] offbalance will be the only who gets this analogy.)

That was the Jolt this morning, and so far this afternoon 3 people utilized the “reply all” on last night’s mass e-mail.
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2003-03-26 11:15 pm

While we're looking at my academic future...

We have a house meeting this Sunday. Someone (who misspelled my last name, but really who doesn't?) nominated me for SAA. I'm flattered. But do i want to do this?

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